At first I was puzzled. Did I really stick out that much while singing? I certainly wasn't trying to. Wasn't I singing just like everyone else? I got quite worried, and for the next few weeks tried valiantly not to be heard at all. The upshot was that I didn't enjoy the rehearsals one little bit, which was a pity because I love to sing.
The choir is not the only place I stick out in. I'm very noticeable among people of my own age too. Go to any function, and I'm always different. I wear skirts, not jeans. I don't wear make up. I hate high heels. I like to talk about things like Shakespeare, biology, Jane Austen, and other such weighty matters, not to spend hours talking without saying a thing. I like spending time with one or two people, not hanging around with a crowd...The list is endless.
Sometimes it's hard being so out of place. I know people see the differences between me and other girls my age. I'm sure people think I'm weird. When I go places and meet new people, it's hard for me to break into the in crowd. Just because I'm different.
I could fix this. I could go out and buy trendy clothes. I could squeeze into a pair of skinny jeans and totter around in a set of ridiculously high heels. I could talk nonsense all day and plaster my face with all kinds of goo. I could become absolutely normal.
But why would I want to? I'm perfectly happy being me. I couldn't even begin to imagine wearing jeans all day. It's hard enough to make myself wear pants for exercise. Elvis feet aren't known for liking high heels. And really, isn't my face good enough without all that make up? No, I'll stay the way I am. I won't follow the crowd, I'll be my own crowd.
I may not be the most popular girl, or the most trendy, but I'm happy and comfortable. I don't care if I'm different. But I'll still have to work on blending in at choir!
I hope I haven't offended any jeans and high heels wears by writing this blog post. It's just that neither of those things are for me. I'll stick to skirts and flats thank you.
Do you like to blend in and be part of the crowd? Or do you prefer to be different? Do you wear jeans or skirts? I'd love to hear from you!